- It was very scary. They warned us if we did not have enough beds, our unit would be used as a place for coronavirus patients. Every day I thought, "Please, not today." I was so scared. And then we had the news that we would open for Covid patients. All pregnant women and doctors of pre-retirement and retirement age were sent to another hospital, while young people remained in the infectious hospital. We were living in a hotel. I have been living here for six months and I have not seen my family since then.
For a week or so, we worked with contact patients and our fear disappeared. But then our workers got infected one by one. Then, our fear got back and it was even scarier. Then, it was decided to close down the hospital to stop the infection and the number of patients increased every day – we all were closed down for lockdown.
We were on lockdown at a hotel for two weeks, we were undergoing medical tests every week and new cases were identified all the time. My husband, my doctor got ill. It was a big blow for me at that moment. Moreover, another doctor who assisted me became ill. I was left alone and then two surgeons started to assist me.
After my self-isolation period, seriously ill patients were admitted to the hospital. It was a scary picture as they were all with wounds and sutures. My first thoughts were that I could not do it and I needed to refuse. I was frightened. When I was a student, I saw such wounds so I chose to become a paediatrician. It means that I assessed my capacities reasonably and I knew I could not work with patients with surgical wounds. However, the two surgeons that assisted me helped me to get over my fears.
It was difficult emotionally to overcome this as I did not see my children, my husband was ill, and we received seriously ill patients every day.